~unfair~

...no idea...i feel so useless...am i? okay...erm...i've been trying to change myself lately...in a way i feel better now...time to just let go everything....this period of time where she's not around me make me feel that i don't have anything to worry...except for her safety...but i know God will protect her...i know...

but today...all of a sudden, i feel so sorry...i feel that something is just not right...was it me? did i do something wrong? is it just becoz we're not together anymore? is it coz i haven't been with you? why? am i not your fren anymore? am i not your sister anymore? i miss you a lot!! i just wish to see a smile on your face when i pass you by. i just wish we can be like the old times where we just laugh, cry, hug and chat together....i miss you a lot...and i'm waiting for you to be my fren again. i may have done something wrong in the past which might have hurt you but i really don't know...i'm sorry....i feel so tired seeing you all so down. i'm glad you are changing lives out there but i really wish i can fall into your arms again. my heart hurts...my heart is crying out...i don't know wat to do. of all the people around me, why you? why? no matter how much others may hate me or look down on me or avoid me but please not you too...i trusted you...i trusted you...don't give me the look which tells me that i'm not your fren anymore...the *i don't know you* look...i wish you understand...i wish you know...i'm sorry...